God is still God..

I have not been around for a bit.. lots of things going on here.. however, I came across this video this morning..
warning.. tissues may be required..

The Story of Zac Smith from NewSpring Media on Vimeo.

Vlogging.....

First I want to apologize for being MIA.  My nieces were here for February break and most of you who know me, knows how that goes.  I have spent the last week trying desperately to get on track.  I am hoping I will be all caught up on Monday. 

So, on to Vlogging.  I have been watching some great ladies lately.  I found a site called Say It Face To Face and really liked the idea of actually meeting online ladies in that setting.  From there I found Jendi at Simple Vlogging Tips and have been learning alot. 

I dug out my old webcam.. it worked ok.. but was dark.. hubby watched me do an online webchat with a friend to test it out and decided I needed a new one..

So I have been playing around with my new webcam.. enjoying the video chats.. and I am itching to make a vlog.. however, I am extremely self-conscious.. scared even!  I have a You Tube account with the kids on it and it is open to all my family and friends.. but I am not sure I want to put my vlogs there..

So the question.. where do you store your vlogs and why? 

Baby Blues

Monday's are so tough..

No one wants to wake up!  Anna drags thru school.. the house is always a disaster from the weekend.  Anna has early ballet class.. Everything on my end is rush rush rush..

Somehow we always manage though.  Anna got 13 hours of sleep!  We went to bed at 8pm on Sunday because we were just exhausted.  Obviously she needed the 13 hours. 

We plan on doing some work in the basement in the next month or two.  Lots to be done.  David and Abby did an awesome job going thru stuff and tossing out alot.  Now the rest is really up to us to go through and get it all cleaned out. 

Jade and Kate are also coming soon!  Can't wait! 

I need to start going thru colors to see what is the best color for the basement walls.  We want to brighten up the room.. It seriously needs it. 

Icy Windows...

That is what I woke up to on Saturday Morning.  Icy windows.. like ice, lined up on the bottom of the inside of the window.  The house was 54 degrees.. Our furnace was not working. 

It had also shut off on Friday.. Angel got it started again.. we couldn't figure out why it was shutting off on us.  However, the basement is the coldest in the house.. especially the laundry room, where the furnace sits.. and it was 10 degrees outside.  The dryer vent going out the window seriously doesn't help..

After getting the heater to work, hubby fought with the kerosene heater.. We needed backup, but it had not been used in quite a long time.  He finally got that working and then he wanted to go to Mirsh Masala.  We have no heat in the van.. I was so not up to that.. I had pj's on under my clothes because there was no way I was exposing flesh in my cold house. 

Well, we went.  After a nice buffet (where Anna's meal consisted of naan bread and 2 slices of raw carrots (gee, if only I ate like her!).. we headed over to Stop and Shop and spent 100.00 on food.. (it's never ending, but thankfully lunch was like 22.00) 

We love the click it scanner at stop and shop.. Anna has a blast with that thing.. although I had to keep reminding her that I didn't need to know the total of everything that went in, every time she scanned..  "Mommy, that was 3.99 and now we have 58.69 total." 

After unpacking the food.. Angel went to bed and I just played around on the internet.. then Abby came and we chatted.. Angel woke up and he and Anna spent the evening playing Asda Story, while Abby and I talked to after midnight.  We never had dinner although made Anna something.. We were still full from lunch! 

Sunday morning I woke alot and had to clean the disaster of our home.. (that's what happens when you slack off for one day around here.. ) and Ethan came. 

He was silly.. He saw the Kerosene heater and immediately wanted to know what it was, does it move, does it make noise.. turns out he thought it was a heater.. lol.. He was totally in awe and talked about it forever.. but he was also skittish because while talking to Abby about it .. he got to close.. backed off quickly and fell into his potty seat..  It was totally funny.. poor kid.. no tears though.. just got up and started talking about it again. 

Today we are back to our daily grind athough slowly since Angel and Anna are still sleeping (we went to bed at 8pm last night!).  Going to be a tough day, but hey, we still have heat!

Raging storms..

That has been my emotions lately.. which produces a very crabby, impatient and miserable me.  Seriously.. I have been just the worse lately.  After completely being my worse with Angel.. He finally exploded.. not like a volcano type explosion however,  but more like a sparkler.. He said one sentence during that time that hurt.. Like seriously hurt.. Most wouldn't even think it was that bad.  He said "Why should I drop everything when no one does it for me." In my mind that translated to.. "No one does anything for me" 

All night those words were in my head.. I cried myself to sleep.  Yes, I am majorly sensitive.  He even apologized soon after saying it.  But it didn't matter because it wasn't him that I was upset with.. He was me.  Those words just haunted me.  I was a failure as his wife. 

I woke up with the worse eyes ever.  How was I going to hide this.  I couldn't even look at him.. cause I would start crying.  It was awful.

By about 10am he finally cornered me and didn't let me go.  He had asked many times, but I just kept saying, I'll be fine, and walking away.  This time he insisted and I cried..

After a long talk I finally told him I wasn't upset with him but I missed him.  It seemed so silly to say that.  He is here every day.. He pointed out that I get up early, spend my entire day devoted to Anna and school and then my afternoons devoted to watching Ethan.  Then he leaves and I go to bed.  Yep, that about sums it up.  We talked about some things that we can do to change that.  I miss spending time with him. 

He also shared that he has been so stressed with work.. it has constantly been on his mind.  I know that he has a harder time relaxing during those times. 

So here are the changes I am making..  One of the biggest things is I have never needed 8 hours of sleep before.. I have a feeling winter is playing a huge part in me wanting to sleep more.  I noticed I am also waking up around 4am and then just drifting in and out til I finally get up at 5.  There is an hour wasted.  The two things I am proud of is doing my bible and biking that early.. I want to continue that..

1. Get Annaleah to do more independent work
2. Work on maintaining the house throughout the day during her schooling
3. Close my computer down at 8pm and focus on the family
4. Get Anna to go to sleep on her own again (work on her room this weekend!)
5. Stay up to 10 or 11 depending, with Angel
6. continue to wake at 5am for my bible and biking time.
7. make sure all dishes and room clean up is done after dinner
8. have next day's school lesson ready at the end of school time  

Not much to say..

I am trying to be faithful with posting but I seriously am not sure what to say here.. hmmm

It was a typical day.. Monday's are always hard to get back in gear.  School was light.  We worked on our paper quilt, Anna did her Bible Lesson from CEF MailBox Club and it is ready to be mailed back.  We did madlibs for English, She started her new week's lesson for Math and Spelling.  Nice and quiet day..

Then Ethan came, followed soon by Abby and David who haven't really been here all week.. Anna was supposed to go to Ballet class but it was pouring hard and Daddy of course really didn't want to drive in it.  So we ended up having a nice evening together.  Abby decided to buy us all pizza from Dominos.. which we had not had in a long time.  Did you know that you can order online and then watch how the order is progressing.  The site told us what time Carlos put the pizza into the oven and exactly when it was ready for pick up.. I thought that was a hoot.  We even got a bit of alone time because Annaleah and Ethan both wanted to go with David and Abby to get the pizza.

Early bedtime at 9 and all was good.

Today I need to really get on track.  Full day of school lessons .. I need to get things in order.  It is amazing how much a weekend off can do damage around here.

If you would like to know more about Annaleah's Bible Correspondence.. check it out CEF MailBox Club.
She really enjoys these lessons.  It comes with a Bible story, a story about a family that goes along with it and questions to answer and send back for the next lesson.  She looks forward to her lessons.  Also check around at the site.  There are some things for kids there as well ..  wonderzone

I suppose I had something to say after all.